Okay, so, first thing, since Sweeney's not going to be saying anything until after this flood at the earliest, and from what I heard from her I don't think his warden's in a much better mood...
I'm guessing he was still - well, there, when you stopped talking? Before he left the infirmary?
[When it's obvious Azul isn't going to be able to speak up anytime soon, there's the sound of him shuffling closer and quietly clearing his throat.]
It's Jamil. First, I'd like to express my continued thanks for your hard work. Second... I can only imagine how exhausting this must be. So, when you have a chance, I'd like to invite you to have tea with me. Maybe you could come pet the bird in my cabin... He likes new people.
[Onto the harder topic.]
... The matter of Sweeney is a complicated one; I apologize for how much I am about to say.
I do know how harsh Azul can be, but... I would like to clarify something. [He takes a slow breath.] It wasn't about trust, with me. In my case, I chose to stop wallowing in my own self-pity. To face the truth about myself, using the guidance of questions. Having those made a difference, yes, and Azul's reassurances softened it. But, if I'm being completely honest?
Softness, at the same time, made it harder. If either of you had been any gentler in your approach, I am fairly sure I would have shut down. And... frankly, I could have been sitting next to Sephiroth, and still forced all of that out. Trust is... nice, but it's a comfort, more than a necessity, for gathering the willpower needed to face personal issues.
That aside... Azul's methods were very harsh with Sweeney, from what I've been able to gather. And I think you are very correct in asking for Infirmary staff to be approached first, but Dracula was there for most of it, wasn't he? As I came to understand it, he played a rather big part in attempting to stabilize him.
Wasn't he removed from the Infirmary prior to death...? If so, doesn't it stand to reason that the one to be looking at is the one who removed him from the place with all the medical equipment? Sure, magic might have been rejected, but a sterile environment would have been better than literally anywhere else on this ship.
Not quite. It worked because I was facing everything, at all. I stopped burying the feelings, and let them come to the surface.
[He lets out a sigh.]
I can make some snacks, as well. Shared food is one of the best relievers of stress I know.
[Quietly:]
As for my final thoughts on the matter... If it had been me, I would have called for someone experienced with counseling, as well as a doctor. Someone with... compromised emotions towards Sweeney should not have been involved, in any way. In Azul's case, he has his rough history.
But, on the opposite end of that - someone who cares deeply about him... Would they even be able to see past their personal feelings, to give the kind of help needed? Or would they focus more on trying to comfort, entirely?
Neither of those things seem they would be helpful, in a case like this, where he was... instantly a mess from the start of the Flood. The injuries came from within - from bottled feelings. If comfort and reassurances could have been enough to help with a case like this, I feel the abrupt injuries would not have been quite so severe...
[But he's said a lot, and Azul is recovering from shock... so he fades into quiet for a moment.]
[There's quiet words of appreciation spoken to Jamil before he takes over.
Starting off with a heavy sigh.]
I can quite assure you that nothing like that will happen again. In Sweeney's case, I intend to avoid him entirely when and where I can.
[A pause.]
However, there is something that I would like to clear up.
Firstly, I do realize and accept responsibility for what happened as a result.
That being said, this was my own reasoning on the matter:
As Jamil mentioned, if other, gentler approaches had been successful with Sweeney, why were the injuries so crippling that far into the week? It's clearly evident that Sweeney has people who are very concerned for his wellbeing. I've no doubt they jumped to help him the moment it was made known that processing these issues would help the healing process. Yet, to no fault of those people, he was still in the infirmary at the end of the week, so disabled that he could hardly move and speak, and constantly requiring care due to the amount of blood loss.
I chose the approach I did because of that. [Sigh.] I won't say I didn't lose my temper, because I did. I've had personal grievances with Sweeney for awhile. But, continuing on... mm, you're rather new here, so imagine you're not too familiar with Sweeney.
He's a crude man, and delights in his crudeness. Raw and unfiltered. Blunt and to the point. Knowing everything I did about him, I decided the best way to approach the issue was to speak his language to him.
[Softer, now:]
Ms. Nita, the truth has haunted Sweeney for a long time. We all saw that in the wounds that appeared on his body. In my case, I knew that was so even prior to this flood.
My words were a reflection of that.
For the sake of privacy, I won't go into details. And... again, I regret that as a result of our interaction, Sweeney succumbed to his wounds.
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Date: 2022-10-15 09:44 pm (UTC)Ms. Nita, what in the world is this all about?
Re: Audio
Date: 2022-10-15 10:21 pm (UTC)Nita tries not to sigh.]
Okay, so, first thing, since Sweeney's not going to be saying anything until after this flood at the earliest, and from what I heard from her I don't think his warden's in a much better mood...
I'm guessing he was still - well, there, when you stopped talking? Before he left the infirmary?
Re: Audio
Date: 2022-10-16 12:11 am (UTC)Re: Audio
Date: 2022-10-16 12:17 am (UTC)[Nita forces herself to breathe, slowly.]
... Given how emotions-based this flood is, whatever healing magic anyone'd tried, he must have been able to reject it.
He has. Bitterness, when it comes to people with powers.
[And hadn't been keen on even just letting her block the pain of the wounds.]
still from Azul's device
Date: 2022-10-16 01:03 am (UTC)It's Jamil. First, I'd like to express my continued thanks for your hard work. Second... I can only imagine how exhausting this must be. So, when you have a chance, I'd like to invite you to have tea with me. Maybe you could come pet the bird in my cabin... He likes new people.
[Onto the harder topic.]
... The matter of Sweeney is a complicated one; I apologize for how much I am about to say.
I do know how harsh Azul can be, but... I would like to clarify something. [He takes a slow breath.] It wasn't about trust, with me. In my case, I chose to stop wallowing in my own self-pity. To face the truth about myself, using the guidance of questions. Having those made a difference, yes, and Azul's reassurances softened it. But, if I'm being completely honest?
Softness, at the same time, made it harder. If either of you had been any gentler in your approach, I am fairly sure I would have shut down. And... frankly, I could have been sitting next to Sephiroth, and still forced all of that out. Trust is... nice, but it's a comfort, more than a necessity, for gathering the willpower needed to face personal issues.
That aside... Azul's methods were very harsh with Sweeney, from what I've been able to gather. And I think you are very correct in asking for Infirmary staff to be approached first, but Dracula was there for most of it, wasn't he? As I came to understand it, he played a rather big part in attempting to stabilize him.
Wasn't he removed from the Infirmary prior to death...? If so, doesn't it stand to reason that the one to be looking at is the one who removed him from the place with all the medical equipment? Sure, magic might have been rejected, but a sterile environment would have been better than literally anywhere else on this ship.
Re: still from Azul's device
Date: 2022-10-16 12:38 pm (UTC)And so she makes the effort to take his points as he presents them, rather than just reacting.
Her own response is a little slower than normal, in turn.]
So it worked because it was the truth, and it needed to be said.
But people can use the truth to hurt themselves, too - or what they see as the truth.
I don't think this could happen again, once the flood is over. And I really hope it doesn't, for all of us.
Because from the sound of it, Azul couldn't have known what would happen. Neither did I, and maybe Dracula didn't either.
[And Maggie definitely couldn't have, nor Sweeney himself.]
... I think I will take you up on that offer, though. A lot of what we need at this point is just... time. And space.
[And possibly context.]
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Date: 2022-10-17 09:23 pm (UTC)[He lets out a sigh.]
I can make some snacks, as well. Shared food is one of the best relievers of stress I know.
[Quietly:]
As for my final thoughts on the matter... If it had been me, I would have called for someone experienced with counseling, as well as a doctor. Someone with... compromised emotions towards Sweeney should not have been involved, in any way. In Azul's case, he has his rough history.
But, on the opposite end of that - someone who cares deeply about him... Would they even be able to see past their personal feelings, to give the kind of help needed? Or would they focus more on trying to comfort, entirely?
Neither of those things seem they would be helpful, in a case like this, where he was... instantly a mess from the start of the Flood. The injuries came from within - from bottled feelings. If comfort and reassurances could have been enough to help with a case like this, I feel the abrupt injuries would not have been quite so severe...
[But he's said a lot, and Azul is recovering from shock... so he fades into quiet for a moment.]
(no subject)
Date: 2022-10-18 03:27 pm (UTC)Starting off with a heavy sigh.]
I can quite assure you that nothing like that will happen again. In Sweeney's case, I intend to avoid him entirely when and where I can.
[A pause.]
However, there is something that I would like to clear up.
Firstly, I do realize and accept responsibility for what happened as a result.
That being said, this was my own reasoning on the matter:
As Jamil mentioned, if other, gentler approaches had been successful with Sweeney, why were the injuries so crippling that far into the week? It's clearly evident that Sweeney has people who are very concerned for his wellbeing. I've no doubt they jumped to help him the moment it was made known that processing these issues would help the healing process. Yet, to no fault of those people, he was still in the infirmary at the end of the week, so disabled that he could hardly move and speak, and constantly requiring care due to the amount of blood loss.
I chose the approach I did because of that. [Sigh.] I won't say I didn't lose my temper, because I did. I've had personal grievances with Sweeney for awhile. But, continuing on... mm, you're rather new here, so imagine you're not too familiar with Sweeney.
He's a crude man, and delights in his crudeness. Raw and unfiltered. Blunt and to the point. Knowing everything I did about him, I decided the best way to approach the issue was to speak his language to him.
[Softer, now:]
Ms. Nita, the truth has haunted Sweeney for a long time. We all saw that in the wounds that appeared on his body. In my case, I knew that was so even prior to this flood.
My words were a reflection of that.
For the sake of privacy, I won't go into details. And... again, I regret that as a result of our interaction, Sweeney succumbed to his wounds.
For his sake, I hope it wasn't for naught.
(no subject)
Date: 2022-10-18 05:49 pm (UTC)Tired, but understanding.]
I hope so, too.
All of you, get some rest, okay?